Our Last Ultrasound

So today was our last ultrasound, happy anniversary to us! Trevor is adorable. I know that's hard to say via ultrasound, but even the midwife kept saying he's beautiful. She probably tells every mom that, but I still believe it ;) I just love him so much already. What did we find out?

He's big. I was under the impression he was small (despite taking up every inch of my torso) but she thinks he will be average to slightly over average. She measured his belly to be big and showed us where he was at on the chart. Hello, little chunker. She couldn't get a head measurement since he is so low. She kept trying, but his head is pretty well into my pelvis (which she confirmed was where the cramps were from). Even with his head that low, he still has feet in my ribs. No lightening for me :( she said I'm small and I was carrying a big baby and must be in pain, and I'd have to say, she's right. I think it could be far worse though and I would certainly go through worse for him. Lastly, she informed us that I am measuring a week ahead, so hopefully he will also be coming at least a week early. She said he's good to go, and he's perfectly healthy and since he's not tiny, will be able to take the contractions well making birth better for him.

My next appointment is in two weeks to check me up. I'll be full term and at that point will see them weekly until he decides to make his debut. Any takers on dates? I've got a few guesses already!

It's really hitting me that I'm going to be a mom soon.

Belated Update.

So much has happened and I just have been putting off posting, mostly because I'm too tired and lazy to do so. Shoot me. First of all, I'll be 34 weeks on Thursday. Secondly, I finally had my baby shower that was thrown by the lovely Julia Reiniche! She did such an amazing job and I am forever grateful. We had TONS of food considering the large amount of people whom RSVPed. Unfortunately, many cancelled or didn't show very last minute after Julia had already bought the food and everything, so we had a surplus. I know she was stressing out about that, but she must know that I had a wonderful time with those who came and I was so glad to not run out of pizza rolls ;) Thank you so much to those who came to celebrate with me and I appreciate all the generous gifts. I'm working on the Thank Yous and will be sending them out shortly! I'll be throwing Julia's baby shower January 4 at 404 so don't miss it! :)

I have also had several ultrasounds since my last post. Three, I believe. Trevor is doing wonderfully. Mommy, on the other hand, has what we think to be kidney stones. I had severe pain a few days ago and went into Iris. After a urine sample, she concluded that I had kidney stones or even just one. I haven't had pain since, well that was related to that. Pain in General has been a big part of my day to day life. Like today, I had cramps in my pelvis and my back as well as pressure. Then I had a few contractions while shopping with Sharon. Thankfully, I had an appt at 1145 so I told the midwife everything. Turns out the cramping is because he's so low into my pelvis and the contractions are because I'm not taking it easy. I was hardly even walking an hour, so I don't see how that is. She told me again that I'm short and basically I'm going to get my ass kicked whether I like it or not. I can deal with that as long as she's sure Trevor is not trying to come out. I still don't think he's going to stay in there until 40 weeks, but I may be surprised! She also estimated him to be 6.5 lbs at birth, which is in the range of baby Erik and Courtney, so I'm not surprised. I hope that is the case because I'm not really wanting a 10 pounder. I have one last ultrasound December 23 (also my 4 year wedding anniversary) and then a check up every week until I go into labor. Wow. We are really getting close!

I was also informed that my dad is flying out for a week for my Christmas present! Although it won't be until March. Trevor will still be a newborn and I'm thankful my dad can experience that. I wish my mom could come out too and Erik's as well, but they will meet him soon enough!

How far along? 33 weeks & 4 days 

Total weight gain: 25 pounds

Stretch marks? Yes. Just yes.

Sleep? It's getting harder and harder.

Best moment this week: seeing my little man today on the ultrasound.

Miss Anything? Laying on my stomach. Doing HITT workouts. Standing up on my own. Breathing normally. Putting on shoes. Wearing my jackets.

Movement? Often. I found out (which I had already thought) that he is very forward to the surface of my belly, so I feel EVERYTHING and sometimes very hard. I love it, even the ones that hurt.

Food craving: Cheese. Fruit (grapes and peaches especially). Pizza products. Bread. Smoothies as of recently.

Anything making you queasy or sick? No.

Labor signs: experienced Braxton Hicks again and some cramping with pressure, but no labor.

Symptoms: started to get pretty tired again. I also have a lot of tightening and heaviness because Trevor is so low, which makes it uncomfortable to stand or walk sometimes. I'm ALWAYS hungry. My back pain can flare up sometimes and that's no fun. My boobs (sorry for TMI) are achy and leaky which is new for me.

Belly Button in or out? Barely in. Ana was poking it today haha.

Looking forward to: having this baby!!

Our Baby in Veggie/Fruit/Food Term? No idea lol. But he is about 4.5 lbs and about the length he will be at birth.

30 Weeks & 3D Ultrasound

Finally! I am 3/4 of the way finished with my pregnancy, and we got to see Trevor in 3D.

First thing is first, I'm not crazy. Ive always felt like Trevor was RIGHT under the surface of my belly. I can feel him frequently, and sometimes his kicks hurt me. My belly is solid and the skin is pulled very tight. As she begins the ultrasound, the technician notices that the baby is in fact right under the surface. We saw him rest his foot up on the sonogram and at the same time you could feel his foot on my belly. She said that she isn't surprised at all that his kicks hurt sometimes. She pointed out that he has very chubby cheeks. Wonder who those come from. ;) She noted full lips (uhhhh?) and a little button nose as well. Of course, this makes me stir and wonder who he looks like, but really there is no telling for quite some time. As long as he's healthy, it doesn't matter, but a girl can wonder! 

I'm thinking he will have my round face, Erik's mouth, my nose and the eyes....no idea. We have realized though that he already might be a little Erik. The whole time he kept getting into his comfortable position with his arm thrown above his head. If you were to creep on Erik sleeping, that's more than likely what he's doing. Whether or not Trevor will inherit his mouth breathing is a whole other story. 

He was so adorable. He kept throwing his legs up to grab his toes. That made him seem like such a little person! He did a little amniotic drinking and you would see his little tongue come out of his mouth while he took some gulps. He moved around a bunch and apparently wanted us to know that he is a boy. The technician said that he likes to have his legs wide open, so we got quite the view. I can't wait to see his little face and watch his little personality form. I think he's going to be a little goof ball 

Iike his dad. I can't wait!

Anyway, my baby shower is in 8 days at Julia Reiniche's house starting at 2. I can't wait to see everyone there! I will Skype you, Mom, so be around! 

29 weeks.

In 8 weeks, I'll be full-term. My baby man will be done cooking and could technically come out any time. But I have 11 weeks until my due date, which is insane. Today at our appointment, we discusses the birth a little bit. As long as I'm at least 37 weeks, I call when my water breaks (unless it's night, then I call in the morning) or I call after contractions that are 1 minute in length, 3-4 minutes apart for 2 hours straight. They asked who would be in the delivery room, which will be Erik, of course, and Julia to take photos. My appointments now are every 2 weeks and they are ultrasounds. I can't wait to see him, it's been forever! I really need to schedule my 3D ultrasound. That's about it!

How far along? 29 weeks

Total weight gain: 19 lbs - this third trimester ain't playing.

Stretch marks? Yes, they've become very apparent on my belly as of recently. In fact, my midwife lifts my shirt to see the marks and looked pretty surprised. I'm not huge, so it's kind of strange, but my skin is just stretch mark prone. Yes, before another person tells me to put on lotion, I do, everyday. I'm okay with my stretch marks, even if they bring me down sometimes. I'm making a human; I'm creating my son, which is worth it.

Sleep? I'm always tossing and turning and if I wake up in the middle of the night, I'm up for good. I have a feeling it's going to get harder.

Best moment this week: my appointment today :)

Miss Anything? Fitting into clothes. I was trying on coats today and my belly said, "nope".

Movement: All the time. I'm not sure he sleeps anymore, but I'm not complaining. I love his little pokes. I don't, however, love when he jabs me in what feels like an organ.

Food craving: Pizza products. Cheese. Milk. 

Anything making you queasy or sick? Nope!

Labor Signs: Nope.

Symptoms: the normal aches. Still no heartburn, headaches or other lame symptoms. Although, I am ALWAYS hungry.

Belly Button in or out? Barely in.

Looking forward to: my ultrasound in 2 weeks and my baby shower the day after :)

Our Baby in Veggie/Fruit/Food Term? Idk, all my apps are different, but he's getting big :)

Hello, Third Trimester! :D

I'm officially welcoming the third and final trimester! I debated when exactly the third trimester started, but since I'm 27 weeks today and have exactly 3 months until my due date, I figured this was it. I can't believe how close we are getting to meeting our son! Erik and I are obnoxiously excited. I've been doing a lot of sitting in the nursery and refilling and organizing the clothes over and over. It's a disease.

Today I intend on setting up the pack n play that I got in yesterday which will be in our room and used in place of the bassinet since it has a bassinet attached to it as well as a changing station. I've also received some other key items that I've ordered. Aside from a glider (instead of swing), the travel set (stroller and car seat) and small things such as bathing items, blankets, and everything for feeding, I'm good. We plan on Erik having a diaper party, so that'll be nice. Not sure when though. My baby showers are coming up! I'm excited! :) My fall maternity photos will be November 9 and again... I'm excited! Thankfully I'm not 900 pounds like I thought I might be for my photos. Whew. Speaking of photos, my lovely bestie Julia will be taking photos at the hospital. If you know me, you know I love you document with photos, so I'm happy she will be doing this.... As long as she doesn't go into labor lol. 

How far along? 27 weeks

Total weight gain: 12 lbs

Stretch marks? Oh yes. I'm not exactly striped yet, but they have made an appearance all over my body. 

Sleep? I toss and turn quite a bit. Also, now that I finally am told it's okay to sleep on my back, it's herder for me to breathe so I'm on my side again anyway. Sigh.

Best moment this week: reaching my 3rd trimester!

Miss Anything? Breathing. 

Movement: it's getting more intense. I see my stomach shift a lot because he always seems to be rolling around. I love it. I'm going to miss it so much after I give birth.

Food craving: Pizza products. Cheese. Milk. 

Anything making you queasy or sick? Nope!

Labor Signs: No, but I did experience Braxton HIcks for the first time. Strange feeling.

Symptoms: I'm achy, and frequently hungry. I'm also just a sentimental mess. Rory graduated high school on Gilmore Girls and I bawled.

Belly Button in or out? Barely in.

Looking forward to: my next appointment to discuss the birth :) and my baby showers.

Our Baby in Veggie/Fruit/Food Term? Cauliflower. But he's 16 inches and 2.5 lbs. Wow.

14 Weeks To Go!

Seriously?! That's no time at all! That's assuming I give birth on time and not early (though I'm guessing I will be late). This makes me 26 weeks pregnant and 2 weeks away from my third trimester. I can't wait to blow up all at once and gain 30 lbs! Just kidding. Although, I am absolutely dreading gaining third trimester weight. I've gained 10-11 pounds so far which is right on track. Speaking of on track, I had another baby appointment yesterday. My belly measured at 25 weeks and his heart is strong. He is currently facing head down with the rest of the body angled on my left side. I had my glucose test done as well. Next appointment (3 weeks from tomorrow) will be to talk about the birth and do another check up. After that I'll schedule my next ultrasound which I'm DYING for. I need to schedule my 3D ultrasound soon as well. 

I've been feeling pretty well aside from some belly issues, but nothing I can't handle. Erik has been on point with foot and back massages, so my aches have been tended to. I am ELATED because my midwife told me that I can sleep on my back as long as I don't feel dizzy. Some women have a uterus that is too heavy and presses on their vein making them dizzy. I was told as long as I feel well, to go for it. I slept SO well last night. I've been craving anything pizza related and dairy. Basically give me a pizza and a glass of chocolate milk and I'll consider our marriage. I'm especially excited for Pasta Pesto tonight for dinner. It's a Dutch pasta restaurant, but it's delicious. :) I've noticed the arrival of some new stretch marks. They're very tiny and at the bottom of my stomach, but I'm sure they'll grow. This is all part of the miracle I'm partaking in, so I'll wear them proudly... and still slather them in oils and creams even though I don't believe it truly works.

I've finished my final exams so I've had time to focus on myself. Aside from cleaning and cooking, I watch Gilmore Girls, give myself manicures, go on lunch dates and generally just relax. This is my last time EVER without a child, so I'm being a little selfish. No shame. 

Well, I'm starved and am due for a giant bowl of cereal :) 

24 Weeks and a Bump Update

Not the most flattering picture, but I had Erik take it real quick.


How far along? 24 weeks

Total weight gain: 8 lbs

Maternity clothes? Almost every day. Or in my sweats/leggings.

Stretch marks? Still just the one on my belly and the rest on my love handles, upper thighs and inner thighs

Sleep? It's become a real struggle. My hips ache, my belly is too heavy, boobs are in the way and my legs ache. I have a pillow for my head, a pillow to keep the arm I lay on from falling asleep, a pillow for under my hips and a pillow to put between my legs.

Best moment this week: Erik feeling Trevor kicking when he wasn't half asleep. Trevor has been kicking tons for Daddy lately.

Miss Anything? Sleeping on my back and stomach.

Movement: Everyday :) his pokes are becoming stronger and more frequent.

Food craving: Whatever it is that day, but generally dairy products. Milk, cheese, yogurt, ice cream, oh yes.

Anything making you queasy or sick? Nope.

Labor Signs: Thankfully not.

Symptoms: Aching feet. Lower back pain. Mood swings. Random bouts of crying. Fatigue. Nothing I can't live with!

Belly Button in or out? In, but that sucker is getting shallow.

Looking forward to: My baby showers! November 2 is my E Baby shower where I will meet with everyone at my mom's house through Skype and November 23 is my Netherlands baby shower at Julia's house in Boekel at 2pm.

Still registered at Amazon and Carter's :)

Also, making a 3D ultrasound appointment, especially after seeing Melanie's ;)

Our Baby in Veggie/Fruit/Food Term? Length of an ear of corn, but he's curled up in a ball of course.

Technically, I'm 24 weeks tomorrow. I'm feeling great! I'm getting tons of cleaning done daily and am on top of my school work. I've been meeting up with friends often and have even been baking a ton. Erik finally felt Trevor's kicks when he wasn't half asleep in bed. We were sitting on the couch watching tv and I was feeling him move a lot, so I told Erik to have a feel. After a minute or two, Trevor kicked for daddy, at least 5 times - he's felt it since too. Seeing Erik's smile every time he feels it makes me even more excited to see him holding our baby. I've seen Erik hold many babies at this point, but this one is going to have his adorable bottom lip, I know it. Maybe he'll even have his Daddy's naturally dark hair (as mine isn't) and his height. Either way, I imagine Trevor will have green eyes since we both do BUT both my parents have blue eyes, so you never know! I'm hoping Trevor is as tiny as we were too (in the 6 lb 8 oz range). No 10 pounders, please.

In two weeks I have another regular check up to measure my belly and listen to his heart as well as go over the birthing process. We are scheduling our 3D ultrasound for 30-33 weeks, we decided. I can't wait to share the video with my family, because I know you're all eager to be a part of this pregnancy.

I do feel pretty pregnant at this point. My belly is round, firm and undeniable. I love to wake up in the mornings and see it in all it's glory! I'm reaching the point that my skin is getting tighter and I'm expecting the stretch marks to make their debut, but if they don't, I won't be mad. ;)

Is This Real Life?

Wow, I didn't notice how much I was behind. But here we are.

I am 21 weeks and 1 day pregnant. I have surpassed the halfway mark; I'm officially closer to seeing Trevor. Recently, the thought of becoming a parent has become increasingly real. It helps that we talk about it as if he's already here. Rick always asks me, "how's Trevor?" Or "how's my Godson?" Erik tells him he loves him before he heads out the door. By far the most surreal are the kicks. I can absolutely feel the kicks now, without any question of what they are. I feel it most when I'm lying in bed, morning or night (like a typical newborn). I can't help but to smile every time. This childish a ninja, so I'm thankful it doesn't hurt yet. For the first time last night, Erik felt a kick. Now that I'm sure he can feel it from the outside, it was all about timing, which wasn't in our favor. But Trevor was kicking and I took the back of Erik's hand (it was the only thing I can get to in his sleeping position on his side) and placed it on my belly. He kept telling me he felt something every time he kicked, so I knew we finally got it. He thought it was awesome, but weird. Haha.

Trevor is 10.5 inches long, approximately, and though it doesn't sound like much,it is! Look at a ruler. It's insane and explains why I can feel his movements so well now. Mind you, his limbs are tucked into a ball, so he takes up about 7 inches of space.

At our 20 week scan, all his limbs and organs were checked. He looks perfect. It's relieving to know that no major issues were found,or even minor ones for that matter. He was moving all around in there, no even drinking the amniotic fluid, which we took a sonogram of. Seeing this little human moving around made us so anxious to hold our little boy. Luckily, Samantha and Zachary Beams had their little boy, Bentley, September 5 and we got to snuggle him. I could stare at him all day - he's precious. Erik melted in a puddle of man and now is even more anxious to see our son. Less than 4 months until we meet him.

Congratulations Beams'!

I also keep accumulating clothes and things, mainly from Kati who keeps spoiling me. Thanks again, lady! :) I keep sorting and resorting them, but I know I'm just nesting. We have lots more to get, but we have time.

My baby shower is November 23 at Julia's house, as I've stated before.

But now, I also have a Bab-E Shower hosted by my mother in Pittsburgh. Gifts will be sent to me and I will wait to open them until November 2 in which I will do so via Skype in front of all my family and friends whom have gathered at my mom's. If you haven't already, RSVP via Facebook invite or send your address out for the paper invitations to her, thanks!

I'm grateful for technology and an awesome Mom for doing this for me. Love you!

I am still registered on Amazon, Carter's and now Walmart for easy access to those in the states.

So excited to share this experience with everyone!

Without further adieu, Trevor.

Nursery, Baby Shower & Fried Chicken.

As the majority of my social media followers know, Erik and I finally completed a very large portion of Trevor's nursery. I apologize for all the baby spam, but I'm sure you all understand my utter excitement and my will to share it all with you. This is truly such an amazing time in my life and I send buckets and buckets of baby dust to anyone whom wishes to join me in the journey of motherhood as well.

All in one day, Erik managed to put together the crib, the shelf, the changing table and the rocking chair together by himself. I literally just threw his scraps away and took pictures. He did not want my help at all. What a man. He put it all together in record speed too. I'm loving all the white, it looks so fresh and clean. It helps to open up the very tiny room. All we need to add now is the wardrobe for Trevor's clothes and random decoration. I'm painting him something for his room, I'm just not sure exactly what it is yet. It may involve a dinosaur and his name, but inspiration may hit and I come up with something entirely different. Of course, there are little touches as well like his mobile that I have yet to buy, baskets to organize the changing table shelves, a storage caddy for over the door, and everything that I have yet to obtain from my baby shower.

If you didn't already know, my baby shower is November 23 at Julia Reiniche's house. I'm registered at Amazon as well as Carter's. For family overseas, you are able to purchase anything online and send it straight to my address so that you won't have to worry about shipping it yourself, unless you would rather do that.

Courtney Peterson

PSC 112 Box 78

APO, AE 09717

Here are some photos of the nursery.

Daddy building the crib.

I have crib bumpers that have yet to be added that match that pillow.

His adorable little shelf. I have no idea what are going in those boxes yet.

Shoes! I have them in all sizes, and there are more to come!

I'm not wearing makeup and my hair needs brushed lol.

It's a work in progress, but at least I can nest, nest, nest... and I am. I feel so much better now that I can go in there and re-arrange or at least envision what I want to do next. I only wish it were easier to put up a shelf here (concrete walls) because I would have one to put Nightmare Before Christmas collectibles that he will have and will love as much as Mommy.

Anyway, I'm 19 weeks pregnant today - 7 more days until Trevor is half-baked! Gosh, I'm at that point where I just want to hold him! I'll get my fix in once Bentley is born and Sam lets me snuggle him to pieces! I feel pretty good otherwise. I find it harder to get up quickly (I get dizzy every time) or to turn over in bed. It's not that it's difficult, it just feels uncomfortable for my stomach. I pee all the time. All. The. Time. My appetite is 110% back. I have no issue eating and I want to do it all the time. Don't worry, I'm not, but I do daydream about random things, like fried chicken. I'm on a Southern food kick right now. Someone please invite me over and cook me fried chicken, macaroni & cheese and mashed potatoes. Don't forget the biscuits.

Uh oh, I think I may have to make a grocery store run.

I Have a Confession

I am an out of control, impatient OCD freak. I want to get the nursery ready - now. I want the furniture we bought for the nursery put together the day we buy it. I want to nest. It's an uncontrollable urge that I can't beat. My darling husband tells me I'm impatient and am NOT allowed to put together anything because it's his "man job". If you know me, you know that's the worst thing you can do to me. I'm an instant gratification kind of girl and I like to do things myself. Since Erik will grump at me if I defy his requests (which I've considered many times) I put my energy into something else. Shopping. I'm not necessarily buying anything yet (I mean, I do, just little things here and there), I'm just highly organizational about what will be bought. Pictured below is a chart that I created to keep track of what clothing I registered for on my Amazon and Carter's registry. I have clothing items listed vertically, and horizontally are the sizes. I put a tally for everything on my list. 3-6 month onesie added, put a tally in the box. This way I can see what I need to register for more or less of. Also, at the very bottom of my list, I calculated what age the baby will be in every month. Example: January 23-February 23 = 1 month. This way, I can tell what kind of clothes I need for each month. Sweater? Shorts? Boots? I calculated Trevor's age for each holiday so I can include an outfit for said holiday. P.S. - I'm totally on love with the Christmas Eve pajamas I picked out as well as the Christmas dinner outfit. Trevor will be 11 months during this time, so I registered them in size 9-12 months. DO YOU SEE HOW INSANE I AM?! Seriously, someone please tell me I'm not alone. I don't know, I just really enjoy organization. Siiiigh.

18 weeks.

Here we are, folks, week 18, (2 weeks from halfway)! This is a small milestone in this pregnancy because it marks an average time that Mommies start to feel their baby move, if they haven't already. At this point I've felt little whooshes and bubbles that I think was Trevor moving, but I didn't want to count them officially. I'm hoping to truly recognize movement soon. Trevor is growing like crazy and sucking all the life out of me. I'm starting to recognize when he has changed positions (not DURING, but later) because my stomach will be shaped differently.

Erik and I have finally cleared out the man cave and made its temporary home in the guest room so Trevor can have the old room. I'm WAY to excited and impatient to get everything in there.

I've been having visions lately of our little boy during the holidays. I see him at 10 months old on Thanksgiving, enjoying some mashed potatoes from Mommy's plate, or on Christmas at 11 months, running around (if he's an early bloomer like Mommy & Daddy) in his Christmas long johns and reindeer slippers, surrounded by mountains of wrapping paper. In just 4 and a half short months, it'll no longer be Erik and I. We are so excited that I really can't put it into words.

We are beyond ready for you, Pumpkin. :)

My pregnancy survey: 

How far along? 18 weeks

Total weight gain: Nothing. I was informed that many ladies don't gain weight until approx. 20 weeks, aimless worried than I was.

Maternity clothes? Maternity jeans are my favorite, then any top that will fit my belly is good. My favorite is Erik's band tees.

Stretch marks? Belly wise, nothing but a quarter if an inch mark that is TOTALLY random. I have them on my sides, hips, thighs and butt. I'm learning to come to terms with them because I seen EXACT ones to mine on someone else that have faded nicely.

Sleep? Uncomfortably, but better than nothing. I miss sleeping on my belly.

Best moment this week: starting the nursery!

Miss Anything? Cigarettes sometimes, don't judge me. Not breathing like I'm 500 lbs. Being able to clean without 40 breaks.

Movement: Im hoping anytime now!

Food craving: Fruit Mentos are where it's at, but not really.

Anything making you queasy or sick? Not really.

Labor Signs: No

Symptoms: lower back pain - fatigue (which I attribute to not sleeping well) - mood swings have officially made their debut. Sometimes, without reason, I feel so angry that I could start a fight, but I know better and just go cool off or announce that I'm grumpy.

Belly Button in or out? In. 

Looking forward to: building and setting up all the nursery furniture!

Our Baby in Veggie/Fruit/Food Term? Sweet potato

It's a Boy!

So, I'm a little late on posting this, but you ALL already know what I'm having.

It's a boy!

The initial shock has died down, but for a minute I was sure I would have a heart attack. We entered the office of the lady whom would be performing our ultrasound. I eagerly laid down and allowed her to squeeze the cold jelly on my belly in preparation to see our little girl. The baby was sleeping, of course. The spicy food, sugar and belly poking did nothing for keeping him awake. With permissions, the technician jabbed my sides in hopes to shake him awake. It was funny because we could see him swaying back and forth and not budging. Jerk. I threatened to ground him upon his arrival and he finally woke up. "I've got it!" OMG, let's see that vagina. "It's a boy, 100%" Died. I died of shock right then and there, came back to life so I could throw my hands on my face and scream, "boy?!"

All my instincts were wrong and everyone else was wrong as well. I just smiled and laughed in disbelief yet excitement to finally know. She told me that he looks great and has a really strong heartbeat (which we also got to hear). I left that office a new woman. Dreams of dresses, bows and a Daddy's girl were shattered, but visions of a dirt covered Momma's boy begging for his first guitar (hopefully) came to mind. He was also wearing a bow tie and cardigan in this vision. As promised, I called Julia as soon as we left and she didn't have words; she was just as shocked as me. Then Erik and I told Rick that he's getting the nephew he wanted, and of course, he was so happy. I called my family and none of them were surprised. My mom had an initial instinct that I was having a boy when I told her, and my dad insisted I was having a boy and he would call him Bruce... even though our son will be named Trevor. (Bruce Lee Peterson, get it *eye roll*) 

I awoke the next morning with so much excitement about our baby boy. Erik is even more excited than I expected and can't wait to have a little man. Erik and I like to greet each other with a kiss and a "we're having a boy" now because we are just so amazed and excited.

Trevor, you are NOT what I expected, and I am thrilled about that. You surprised Mommy already, and I can't wait to see what else you have in store. I love you so much already & I can't wait to have that love grow when I'm holding you in my arms or watching you in Daddy's. See you in January, kid. Please, let's not come any later, January 23 is perfect.

Unexpected Ultrasound

So, Wednesday was supposed to just be my 4 month check-up. Wendy (midwife) checked my blood pressure, answered questions and felt my belly. She was feeling my uterus and was surprised by how high my uterus has risen into my belly - explains my early showing. I already knew that though since I feel for it every night while I lay in bed. She said the baby and my uterus are growing magnificently. :)

Then, she gets the Doppler ready (a listening device to hear the heartbeat) and searches. She continued hearing my heart but not the baby's, she told me that mine was too strong. I guess that's good for me.  So after a few minutes and some nervous nausea, she decided to do an ultrasound. Immediately she saw the heart beating strongly and showed me our baby. Holy crap, did that little person grow! I think the baby was trying to sleep. She'd push the wand down and he/she would give a kick to say, "hey, leave me alone". The baby turned its head away and locked it's legs tight so we couldn't get much of anything. Definitely a stubborn Peterson! I don't mind, because in 3d ays I'll get my 3D ultrasound and won't leave until I'm certain what sex it is.

Erik and I DID settle on a boys name. He's the pickiest man on the planet, so I didn't have much of a choice. It's simple and cute. We will announce the name when we announce the sex. Can't wait until the next blog to tell you guys! ;)

Knowing that I'm in my second trimester and that my baby is growing like crazy really makes me realize that this isn't just a pregnancy; I'm not just getting fat and awing over tiny human clothes. In 5 short months I will be holding a baby in my arms, I will be a mother and Erik, a father. We will be parents to a beautiful baby boy or girl. It'll help once we have a nursery set up as well. Erik and I went to a store called Baby Dump yesterday and we bought the crib and mattress. The crib is a basic white, rectangular build and the mattress is a special AirGo brand which allows the baby to breathe when it rolls over onto it's stomach - I love that. We also went to Ikea and bought a white changing table. I thought about doing a dresser with a changing pad on top, but since the room is so small I thought it'd be more efficient to use a basic table and buy the changing table hanging organizer to utilize the space. We intend on purchasing an armoire that we picked out once we borrow someone's larger vehicle, a rug and some more storage containers at Ikea as well. Before we get to building what we have, our landlord has to re-wallpaper the man cave from lime green to white and remove all of Erik's gear. I know we have time, but I'm ready to start organizing!

One last piece of news: I discovered that I can in fact put larger items on my Amazon registry, I just have to choose what I want, test it out like I'm buying in, then if it takes me to the end screen, I cancel and add it to my wish list. For family whom were concerned, there is now travel systems and Pack N Plays available to be shipped to me :) I'm so glad I won't have to buy a Dutch travel system because I HATE them and the American ones are so much cheaper. Anyway, I know it's early but to put inquiring minds at ease, you can access my baby registry at this link:

http://www.amazon.com/registry/baby/3ETNLL86456CG

Talk to you in 3 days!

4 Months Complete

As of Wednesday, I'll have completed 4 months of pregnancy. I can't believe it, it really does go by as fast as they say. Yesterday, I returned from my month long vacation visiting family and am now easing back into routine. I certainly look more pregnant than before I left and I definitely feel so as well.

I've gained 4 lbs - I gained back what I lost initially, so I'm at my pre-pregnancy weight now. I'm not sure how considering all the state-side food, but I won't argue it. Other than my dreadful viral infection I'm finally kicking after a week, I feel well. I am tired, but I blame that on the sickness. I do have some stretching and pulling, but the baby needs to grow! I pee what feels like every half hour. I cry for seemingly no reason, unless you count being overwhelmed at an overly-crowded restaurant and a table with too much food covering it, a reason. [To be fair, our flight was delayed a million times, so we stayed an extra day and I was dreadfully tired.] No cravings, just my day to day, "I could go for _______", thoughts. I am fully embracing the maternity clothes. I finally accumulated enough jeans for my entire pregnancy thanks to Ross, thrift stores and random sales.

          15 weeks.

The baby is almost the size of an avocado (length wise) and is weighing in at 3.5 oz. As of now, I am waiting to feel the baby kick. It could be now, it could be in a month, but when it happens I will be over the moon. On Wednesday I have my 4 month ultrasound and checkup with my midwife and August 12 we go in for a 3D ultrasound to find out the sex of baby Peterson! I can't wait to show the DVD to my family! :)

We sort of have names chosen, but I'm not sold on our boy name, so I'm praying for a girl so I can just avoid that situation all together. Ill update after my ultrasound!

3 months

I'm 3 months pregnant, look like I'm 6 after I eat a cracker and feel hardly pregnant at all aside from getting tired early, peeing twice in the middle of the night, EVERY NIGHT and still having a weird appetite. Today, I will eat potato patch fries, funnel cake, pizza, dip n dots and whatever else Kennywood has to offer. I won't be able to ride half of the rides there this year, but I've ridden them all so much that I'm able to safely assess which ones to ride. Otherwise, I'll be honorary purse holder. 

I've purchased tons of baby items since being here. My favorite is the 6 month Polomalu jersey and 0-3 month boots since the baby will arrive in winter. It's an addiction really. I only wish I could find out the gender while I'm still here. (It's a girl) but, to set the record straight, I'd be over the moon about a bouncing baby boy - I just have a feeling.

I've also acquired some maternity clothes. I have lots of cute tops and dresses, but am pretty limited on jeans. I have one awesome pair of jeans, but if my booty grows, they won't be fitting. Everywhere else that had maternity clothes no longer carry them. The ones that do, are too expensive for my liking. I still have 3 weeks to scope some out. Besides, I'm always looking for a reason to shop.

The baby is the size of a plum, is learning to open and close it's finger, flex it's toes & start to suck. Also, I read today that the reason I'm peeing so much is because the baby is now as well. Weird, but awesome.

  

Stuff from my mother.

One of 6 crib bumpers and mink blanket personalized by the lovely Patti :)

Auntie Chrissy & her niece/nephew.

Birthday Ultrasound & Light at the End of the Symptom Tunnel

As those of you back home already know, and those of you on Facebook, yesterday was my birthday. I didn't do much (personal choice, Erik tried to get me out of the house), but I did get a pretty awesome birthday gift: an ultrasound. I was nervous, but not nearly as nervous as I was the two previous times; my growing belly was telling me that everything was probably okay. Unlike my previous two ultrasounds, this one wasn't internal, so I was able to feel the cold jelly on my belly for the first time. I held my hand out behind my head for Erik to hold, and I waited to see our baby. I didn't notice a heartbeat specifically, but since the baby was stretching, turning, kicking and punching, I knew it was there. I don't believe I've ever smiled so big. I loved that it was such a mover! She took photos of him/her from every angle and showed me the adorable little nose. Our baby has a nose. Our baby is a baby. Wow.

As usual, I felt immediate relief and knew that the rest of the day would be amazing. The midwife (Wendie) gave us our two sonograms and our USB drive with the rest of the photos.

This is my favorite one because it's stretching out it's leg and arm.

I can't wait to stop referring to the baby as an "it". I was all over the idea that I was having a girl, until my ultrasound, now I have a nagging boy feeling. Guess we'll see! My next appointment is at 16 weeks when we return from the states. From there, I'm going to try to schedule an appointment to go find out the sex.

My fatigue has certainly lessened. I started noticing that, maybe a week ago, I could still function without a nap, although I was still tired. Now, not having kids to chase after and not having to wake up early, I have lots more energy to do things like, deep clean my house in anticipation to leave it to go home. ;)

My appetite is MUCH better than it was, but I still have lost 4 pounds. Frozen chicken nuggets are still disgusting, but Erik said he'd give them to Peters so I don't have to see them in my freezer anymore. Seriously, sometimes I don't want to open my freezer because I know they're in there. Ha ha.

My digestive issues are easing up some, but I'm hoping they disappear entirely in my second trimester. Wishful thinking?

Other than that, I just look like a stuffed turkey. A turkey that went on vacation and gorged on bread and baked goods. I can't wait until I actually look pregnant instead of a girl whom took too many trips to the buffet line.

I'm leaving tomorrow morning to go back home to Pittsburgh for 30 days (everyone knows this since it's all I've been talking about). I'm excited to have my family and friends watch me turn from a stuffed turkey to something that resembles a cute pregnant woman. Again, wishful thinking? I may not know the sex just yet, but I'm going to come back with so much Pittsburgh, Steelers, & Penguins gear!

Horror-mones

Let me take a minute to talk about hormones.

There was always that one time a month where I would be a little extra cock-eyed and crazier than normal, but that is NOTHING compared to pregnancy hormones.

My mother is known for her wicked PMS (sorry Ma, I called you out). Seriously, my stepdad actually tracks the days so he knows when to act right. I don't think she'll be embarrassed; we embrace our crazy fully in the family. I don't believe I've ever acquired her she-devil ways, so now that I'm pregnant, I'm paying for it double.

I cry at least once a day. Anything can set me off into a sob-fest. Recently, the mere thought of going back home to Pittsburgh for 30 days and to see my family, friends and my across the country best friend, Chrissy, makes me lose my marbles. I'm sitting here researching things to do in The 'burgh so I don't miss anything which seems like a good idea, except I'm having a hard time seeing the screen through tears. 

Triggers:

Chipped ham sandwiches > reminds me of childhood > bawling

Mt. Washington > Erik proposed to me there > this time I'll be pregnant > cue tears

Chrissy > met her through the military > going to experience my non-military life > sentimental mess

Heinz ketchup in fridge > Heinz is from Pittsburgh > want to cry everytime I open my fridge

You get the idea, ANYTHING can trigger it. I can't even control it. You'd think I'd just be excited, but it is SO beyond that. I picture my mom picking me up from the airport and me seeing her face again, I imagine my dad's big warm hugs, I imagine embracing my best friend for the first time in over a year, I see myself kissing my God babies until they turn blue, and dream of everything I'm going to do when I get  there.

I'm crying. I'm so pathetic that I have to share this so that you all can at least laugh at me. I'm glad I'm in the privacy of my own home, haha.

I'm Sure You Get It BUT...

I'm 10 weeks! Sorry everyone, for spamming you with baby photos, statuses, updates and blogs. I'm making NO promise to quit anytime soon.

I'm actually feeling pretty well today. I'm sleepy, so I'm due for a nap soon, but otherwise I'm content. I've been able to eat today with no issues, which is always nice. I am INCREDIBLY thirsty though; I can NOT drink enough water. I've been crying a lot, but I try to do it alone. I've been crying while looking at baby clothes; I envision my little boy or girl in these clothes and then it hits me that I'm going to be a mom. Being a mother is the one thing I know that I will be wonderful at and I'm just so anxious to start.  

I haven't actually gained any weight, in fact, I'm down two pounds but I certainly don't look like it. I'm so bloated everyday. Sometimes, for maybe a few hours, I'll feel normal. I've read in all of my normal sources that this week I can really start noticing a little bump starting to grow. My uterus is the size of a grapefruit! My books tell me that I'll probably have to unbutton pants, wear stretchy clothes or go up a size BUT I live in yoga pants and dresses, so it's not too much of an issue.

The baby is the size of a prune. It's starting to look like an actual human and it's webbing between the fingers and toes are disappearing. By next week, the baby will already be the size of a lime; they grow so fast! 

Exactly 1 week from today my family and friends will be able to experience all this and watch me grow in person. Can't wait to see you all! xo

Belly Laughs

Hello, fellow blog readers. Today, I'm going to whine. I'm giving you a fair warning in case you want to get out while you can.

I've been feeling dreadful.

Exhaustion. Check.

Hot flashes. Check.

Hunger plus inability to eat. Check.

Nausea. Check.

"Digestive Issues" BIG FAT CHECK.

Yes. Growing a human is hard work and I'm more of an instant gratification kind of gal, but I'll just have to learn patience because I'm in this until January. Could it be worse? Yes. Would I still love every exhausting minute of it all, in a way, yes. I'm creating the lungs, the fingers and toes, the brain of a tiny human that's half me and half the love of my life. This is our gift for loving eachother unconditionally, every single day. We have so much love for one another that it overflows, and what a perfect way to use this abundance. We have so much love to give to this Baby Peterson, but right now I'm going to moan a bit, because when I'm holding this miracle in my arms, everything will have been worth it.

I read Jenny McCarthy's book, Belly Laughs, in it's entirety today while in the car to Brunssum. I absolutely loved this book. She really shed light on every symptom, hemroids and sexual encounters included. It's the truth behind the "pregnancy glow" and the sweet kicks of your baby that you feel from the inside out; it's more than the beauty that we believe it to be. Here are a few of my favorite and relatable excerpts to follow.

"For me, the worst of it came (or didn't come, to be more precise) in the beginning. I honestly went thirteen days without even a rumble. And I was eating enormous amounts of food. Where could it be going? I wasn't packing weight on just yet... and it certainly wasn't coming out. Then one day, BAM! There was no way around it, things were rumbling and they wanted to come out. From the feel of things, I could tell that it was the size of Stonehenge and it was ready to flow." (31-32)

"I got to the point where, in our house at night, I had the air-conditioning on fifty degrees (in nothing but Granny undies--lots of fabric and plenty of coverage but not lots of warmth) while my husband was forced to wear a parka and mittens. He kept complaining that icicles were forming on his nose. Of course, reasonable and emotionally balanced pregnant woman that I was, I didn't care if he turned into Frosty the Snowman as long as I kept cool." (84)

"Sometimes you have no idea why you're crying. I remember sitting on the sofa watching a piece of lint  roll by and I burst into tears. My husband kept asking me what was wrong, and I remember trying to think of why I was crying, but there wasn't a reason. Crying for no reason just didn't compute for him, so finally I would just make up something, as in, 'I'm crying because you forgot to take the garbage out.' A little cruel, sure. But a reason is something a man can get his head around." (93)

I still have yet to experience the sore boobs, if at all, as well as swelling, back aches, waddling, heartburn, false labor and stretch marks. They'll sneak up on me, and I'll hate it, but it's all for one amazing result: our baby.

Please, Baby Pete, if you can just let Mommy eat when I go home for 30 days, I'll consider ungrounding you from the rest of the symptoms you've caused. xoxo.

The Official Ultrasound

As you know, I've already had an ultrasound, but it was for some mild spotting I was concerned about, so besides the ultrasound we didn't go over much. Today, it was the real deal.

Of course, as usual, I went in terrified - don't ask me why, I don't know anymore. Marieke was my midwife doing the ultrasound today; she asked me to lay down and spread eagle it. Okay, she didn't say that ,but you get the point. Since it's early, this ultrasound was internal, but I already had one before so I knew how it was. THERE IT WAS! It was MUCH bigger than last time (double, actually) and I could see it's little heart beating. Relief. Everything was perfect, even it's little arms and legs. Then, it was moving around! IT MOVES! It's so strange to know that there is some moving inside of you and it has it's own heartbeat. 

She printed us out a sonogram and stored some other pictures on a USB drive for us. We were asked a million questions and I asked her a million as well.

Even though everyone kept telling me I wouldn't have another ultrasound before I went home, I do. Exactly two weeks from today (July 1) we will have our 11 week ultrasound. That's also my birthday! Then, two days later, we take off for Pittsburgh!  HOLY CRAP, CAN THESE COUPLE WEEKS BE ANY MORE EXCITING?!

My symptoms are, of course, fatigue and overall loss of appetite. It has, however, been getting better in the past two days. I'm not fully back to normal, but at least I can eat more than goldfish. To put it bluntly, I'm constipated. I always say "digestive issues",but that really doesn't capture the sheer horror of it. I've been constipated from the beginning - it's terrible & it makes me look 6 months pregnant because my belly starts poking out and is round and hard. I've been trying to hydrate, hydrate, hydrate! I still don't have sore boobs. I NEVER get sore boobs, even with PMS. I'm immune, I suppose.

Aversions: chicken nuggets, most meat (except ham), and coffee.

Cravings: I go through day-to-day "cravings", but I'm mainly eating whatever sits well. Sour candy is my saving grace for nausea.

2 months!

8 weeks, in case you didn't know ;)

The baby is the size of a raspberry, is developing finger and toes on it's little paddles, has a proportionate head to it's body and is growing the brain and nervous system.

If you follow me on Facebook, which you probably do if you're reading this, you probably have an idea of how I'm feeling. I'm exhausted. Pure torture. It's not, "Yawn, I need a nap..." kind of feeling, it's more of a "I'm not in control of my life anymore and I'm pretty sure I'm hallucinating" vibe. When I get super tired, I get nauseous. That's what I was trying to explain on my status yesterday. I'm fine when I'm well rested, so I more so need tips for perking up. Unfortunately, sleep is my best option as well as just sucking it up until my 2nd trimester. My appetite is somewhat nonexistent, although I'm so hungry. It makes no sense and I would never have understood before I got pregnant. Right now the only foods that don't gross me out are sour candies, potatoes (only roasted, mashed makes me queasy now), Spanish rice and crackery foods, but they're even beginning to disgust me now. My current craving is French toast. 2 days ago I kept thinking about them and the craving only got stronger. Luckily, my friend Heather is picking me up some at the commissary. Chicken nuggets still repulse me in every way possible; I even hate making them for the kids. When the breading touches my hand, I wanna puke. It's one of those pregnancy things you can never understand until you experience it.

My hormones are also RIDICULOUS. Erik doesn't know whether to laugh or hide. If I'm not an irritable beez, I'm crying. He mentioned Vandenberg (our previous base) and I cried. I'm tired, I cry.

Pregnancy is such a strange and beautiful thing.

I'm considering investing in a body pillow seeing as how sleeping has become harder. I obviously do not have a big belly yet, but somehow I feel like it. Sleeping on my stomach hurts and sleeping on my side makes my arm fall asleep and belly feel yucky (I don't understand either).

Sorry, not much to update other than my symptoms. I'm hoping that the extra rest when I'm done babysitting will help. As soon as I'm done I'm heading home and will be able to sleep and relax - I'm coming for you, Pittsburgh!

P.S. - still pretty sure I'm having a girl.

Not a Secret Anymore!

So, we released the announcement earlier than planned BUT I got the photos back and just couldn't wait plus I feel so good about my ultrasound that I couldn't hold it in. Below are the links to my previous posts listed from oldest to most recent.

We're Pregnant!

Symptoms & Nerves

5 weeks

Our First Appointment

6 weeks

Our First Ultrasound

I'm thrilled that everyone knows now and that I can openly talk about it. I look forward to updating everyone  from this point on! :)

7 Weeks & Our First Ultrasound

As of yesterday, I am 7 weeks pregnant, and I sure do feel pregnant. I've been suffering from nausea everyday. It's not debilitating, but it's uncomfortable and doesn't allow me to eat. Food is repulsing; I can eat crackery foods and occasionally a few bites of something else, but I'm generally always hungry. I can't wait to feel normal again. Also, I feel like the most exhausted person in the universe. I wake up and I'm ready to go back to bed. I'm too tired and weak to even walk around the house. I save every ounce of energy I have for tending to the kids, but otherwise I've grown roots into the couch. I also still have digestive issues as well as some serious irritability. Sorry everyone. Second trimester, you can't come soon enough!

So, I had my first ultrasound two days ago. Originally, my first ultrasound was on June 17, but I had a concern about some mild spotting and wanted to get checked out to ease my mind. When Erik and I walked into the midwife's office, we felt immediately comfortable, she was wonderful! She told us that she couldn't promise that she would get a definite answer or not, but she would tell us what she saw. Erik sat behind the bed, stroking my hair while we waited to see our baby. Immediately we spotted a fast little heart, thumping away on the screen above and we grabbed hands. It was the most incredible experience of our lives. Our little blueberry-sized baby had already begun to sprout arms and legs, was the perfect size and positioned perfectly. She pointed out the head and yolk sac to us making it all a reality. Erik and I made a tiny human and now it's growing inside of me, perfectly healthy. She gave us a USB drive with 6 photos on it to take home.

We left the office with not only relief, but more love in our hearts than we entered with. My mind has been eased, but unfortunately the symptoms have not. I'll "suffer" for our little baby any day. 

Our next appointment is still on June 17, and if all is great and healthy, we are going to release our announcement photos that we took a few days ago and proceed to tell the world. Erik and I can't wait to share this excitement and love with you all!

6 weeks!

I look terribly large here. I need a waist belt!

There's something about this milestone that has me excited! My baby still looks like an alien, and is the size of a sweet pea, but it's growing rapidly. :) My symptoms are still the same (belly issues, fatigue, and a hunger that can't be satiated) although, I do have a new craving: chicken nuggets. Words can't explain this need. I though it was a one time thing when I ordered a 20 piece chicken nugget at McDonald's, but it wasn't. It's everyday now. I've been chugging water like a mad woman, but it's not fun when I'm feeling nauseous. Oh, forgot about that! The nausea has reared it's ugly head. It comes in waves and just makes me feel yucky, but I have yet to get sick. Hopefully this is the worst of it. 

In other news, my first ultrasound has been scheduled with the midwife! June 17! I'll be two days shy of 9 weeks. Erik and I decided that if the baby is 100% healthy (which it will be, of course) then we will share the news immediately. The reasoning behind this is that I will go to Pittsburgh soon after and be there a month, so by the time I come back and have another ultrasound, I'll be in my 2nd trimester anyway. I can't wait to share the news! Staci Kennedy is photographing our pregnancy announcement photos on June 3. I can't wait to see how they turn out and share them with everyone after our appointment, along with our first ultrasound.